My biggest battle in life is anxiety. After I got pregnant with Raylon my anxiety tripled. It's one of the reasons my blood pressure was so high during his pregnancy. It's hard. Being a mom is hard. But being a mom who is a perfectionist with high anxiety makes it even harder. Anthony and I have had this exact conversation many of times. Even last night. I just don't know how to stop and just be. So many times I've said I just can't do it anymore. Or I wish I could just go away for a hotel stay by myself. But who am I kidding, I'd sit in the hotel and worry about all that was left to do when I got back. If my posts ever make you think my life is peachy and that I'm a perfect mom. Know that I struggle too. All mommas do. I just wake up everyday and tell myself it's a new day and it will be a good day. I leave the day before behind me.
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